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I guess this is going to be the last thing I put in here, which saddens me. I always thought I'd have this forever, fucking Michelle intro'd this to me in what..tenth grade? and it's maybe for the best, maybe definitely for the best. as in, definitely for the best. now it won't be so easy to know the last day chris and i talked or all the lies tim told me to get me to stick around through the bullshit. it'll be nice not to read old comments from fucking aaron about what a good friend i was, or all the plans with michelle that randomly never happened. i don't know, it'll be a lot easier to make a clean break from all that, i suppose. it still makes me really sad though, a lot of good writing got thrown into something useless. fleeting. temporary. this had been my longest romantic relationship heh i dunno. if i knew you through here... www.myspace.com/lauralifess if you want to still read my thoughts it's www.livejournal.com/thetoadies melancholy is no way for me to be feeling. i felt him gasp against the skin on my neck, and he was sleeping finally. i should be sleeping right now. good night. |
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| 10:49pm 09/01/2008 | |||
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everything i type comes out too honest. let's just say i know. |
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| 06:20pm 06/01/2008 | |||
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am I anymore? I like this person. But I don't know where the fuck she came from. |
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| 09:01am 05/01/2008 | ||||
And I have very dark brown hair now. wyn-my stomach hurts. me-want some tums? wyn-isn't that for like heartbreak and stuff? me-...-thunderous silence-...-hysterical laughter- wyn-...heartburn. :) he's wonderful. i've been technically doing really well, but for the fact that i don't sleep anymore. like...literally. and i drink too much when i get melancholy. but it's not bad at this point. i had a milkshake yesterday and it was life-altering. |
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uuuuuugh sooooo sleeeeeeeeepy| 12:48am 29/12/2007 | |||
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we've decided to move in. no, not simply he and i, but he and i and others. should be happening in april, supposedly. in other news, i now have a dry erase board. and a mild tummyache. and have seen some straaaaaaaaaaange things today. |
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| 01:25pm 27/12/2007 | |||
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i believe my phone is gone forever ... fuck. |
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| 11:39am 25/12/2007 | |||
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everyone here is delighted, including myself. all debts paid, all sins forgiven. i will soon have the place to myself for a few days, during which wyn and i may play husband and wife or i may simply get some serious reading/drinking done. i feel free. |
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| 01:36pm 24/12/2007 | |||
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O Christ, actually laughing out fucking loud. reading old journal entries, and not just mine....BAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA 'OMG I AM SO FREAKIN' EXCITED' Are you? Are you rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeee Life has pwned you. And do you still feel superior, love? I fucking hope not. Oh God, I usually wouldn't say this, but I am really glad that life took the paths that it did, and that I have made the choices that I have. I feel as though, despite my general pervasive unhealthiness, that I have actually done some good. So I'm sitting here in a bathrobe, right. Just thinking to myself about how good life is. My Papa just :D-ed over the shirt I got him for Christmas, without knowing I gt it for him. That should delight him. As little as I like him as a man, he is my Papa. THERE IS SO MUCH GOOD FOOD. My mum made me bourbon bombs. I am in love. I got asked out. And then LOLed. |
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| 04:22pm 23/12/2007 | |||
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I am so fucking excited for Christmas. My last few days have been wonderful...I got paid to read Margaret Atwood yesterday and was encouraged to nap! I ate tons of candy, and got moderately fucked up. I got quite a few Hello Kitty products, and felt really accepted...-happy sigh- Wyn got me a real nice ring. Not a Ring ring, but kick ass nonetheless. Tricia and I ate really tasty donuts together. I slept in. I got everyone really nice presents. I finally feel like a fucking grown-up. Now if only this ache in my fucking collarbone would go away. And being essentially one handed is less than incredible. I'm tough, though. |
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| 12:57am 15/12/2007 | |||
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i kind of hoped to overdose today not in a self destructive way but i don't taste the difference between life and waste. |
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| 10:52am 14/12/2007 | |||
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two month, oh golly. I trust him, and he's getting better. we seem happy, and i'm ninety-nine percent sure that i am sincerely happy. he treats me so well, support/drill sergeant/nurse/clown/tickle monster! especially with my current state, he's been really patient and caring with me. i'm doing better. seeing the doctor tuesday. i am over the worst of it. my body still hurts whenever i do anything, but the nightmares aren't as intense. thank god for small favors. excited to see humans today. gift exchange! :D my head feels funny. sleep time! |
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| 03:19pm 10/12/2007 | |||
 it's obviously totaled. i was passengering. |
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| 02:31am 09/12/2007 | |||
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i don't know what's worse, the fact that they had to use the jaws of life to get me out of the wreck, or the fact that i don't recall thst, nor do i recall three hours of last night. my arm hurts so much i literally wish that i could take 5486596043865 vicodin. but that is above the recommended dosage. after seeing the pictures, though, i am lucky to be alive. |
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| 02:26am 08/12/2007 | |||
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i gotta broken collarbone and finger from the accident tonight. oh golly. |
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| 10:28am 06/12/2007 | ||||
He talks to me. And makes me feel real excited and posi. This month should be amazing! 3 day weekend randomly this weekend. Christmas Shopping (already dropped $300 and that's even before I take care of Tricia and Wyn) Bill's party!!! I'd missed dear William. Wyn reminded me that I actually get paid one more time before Christmas, so I can totally go all out ANDANDAND I have the day before, the day of, and the day after New Year's Eve off, and my parents are going on a little vacation those days. Perpetual party? Perpetual party. |
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| 01:23am 04/12/2007 | |||
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The only thing I want to be is a good friend, and I suppose sitting for an hour and a half in a freezing car making someone face reality is a decent way to do that. That being said, it's nice to have had a really in-depth conversation with someone whom I haven't in a long time. And hell, Chrissy and I even talked. Which was...something else. her-Laura, do you ever use your sexuality over men? me-Honestly dear, I don't know how to. She was perplexed by me, and I by her. Pleasant. Today I watched 'Aladdin' and made bacon. My hair was straight and when plans got demolished, it was not even a big deal. There are chicken bones on a napkin next to me, and I have ripped apart that carcass. I am ready for bed. |
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| 07:27am 01/12/2007 | |||
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fuck working the early shift after working the late shift. p.s. I love my life. |
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| 01:29am 26/11/2007 | |||
| I wish I had a soul. | |||
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| 10:17am 06/11/2007 | |||
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“Don't ever cheat on someone. I'm serious. It's not worth it. . . . The only thing infidelity does is remind you of the people you're not having sex with, which is something you can just as easily think about when you're completely alone.” -Chuck Klosterman |
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| 08:16am 04/11/2007 | |||
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What is it about pathetic, stupid little boys that make them think rhetorical questions are in any way clever or biting? Scroll down for the answer! Because I suppose when your head is that far up your own sphincter, the loss of air and blood flow-and I'm sure the dodging to avoid sores- makes everything you say seem relevant. |
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